Sunday, April 22, 2007

I want to live..

..For You.

Listening to this song "For all my days" by Altered Frequency.

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God of love and Lord of Grace
How I love to sing Your praise
All my life I will proclaim
Your wonderful and glorious name

I will declare Your matchless worth
I will declare You faithfulness

I will lift my hands to praise You
I will lift my voice to bless You
Glorify Your name for all my days
I will live my life to please You
I will give my heart to love You
Glorify Your name for all my days.
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Talk talk talk. God, please talk to me. I feel this sense of emptiness looming above me. Why? I think I'm probably just tired. Physical drainage? Spiritual attack? Mental fatigue? Emotional malfunction?

There's a pattern. It's always after serving. Or a really good time fellowshipping. Ministering to ppl. So much so that every time i sense God's presence working. I think I dread what is to come after.

But then, how can I be sure what is God's presence? Had this talk with someone, many people are disillusioned by their own emotions. If God's presence is the feeling of being charged up and emotional.. Then can't ANY musician simulate that experience? Gosh.

Be glad Tim. Just be glad.

Wish life was so much simpler. Wish I didn't have to think so much. Well, ignorance is bliss. But it's a blind and shallow blessing. On the other hand, Knowledge is power, but corrupts and puffs up.

Hope to have less of such 'down' posts. Thanksgiving. Need to start counting my blessings. My undeserved blessing from the God of Love and Lord of Grace.

Dang. Tired man.. it's only 11:24pm!!

nite-o!

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